Self confidence issues

I have this self confidence issue thing. Especially when people like me sees almost perfect people and flawless ones. It really puts me in this sorrow mood. Envious and jealous to those people. This mood makes me think how unlucky I am compared to others. Yeah I know, nobody's perfect but some are just too flawless. Smart, good looking, amazing personality, good in adapting, dislike to complain, has other talents like singing,  good in sports, pious, tall, rich, wonderful English vocabs, have lots of friends and admirers... sigh. I wonder what it feels like to be them. I shouldn't complain really because there are people who are actually unluckier than me. But still.. haish, another bad quality of mine is complain complain complain. Just fyi, don't be jealous of me. Not worth it. You are wasting your time. Sometimes this mood made me even think, why do I even exist. I hid all of my sadness with a smile. You'll be seeing me smiling don't worry. In certain circumstances, people then to overlook my statements just because I'm not "worth it" to even hear . That's why I dislike to repeat my sentences when people seem to ignore what I said. Unworthy you know.

2nd year !!

Yeah, I passed my first year. Which means, 2nd year here I go !!